A long time ago I made a decision, I've decided I did not want any regrets. Every single day I've spent on this planet I have done something that I wanted to do and that I enjoyed. I have grown spiritually and I have a crystal clear soul.
I have been a successful person when I have been truth to myself, when I have come to the realisation that my limitations are only an expression of past emotional traumas, when I know that all my reactions are based on fear, when I have been truth to my values and when I have loved myself unconditionally because every unloving behaviour towards other is just a reflection of the amount of love I have for myself. I am successful when I question my motives, and I do, all the time, for every action, and I am successful when I take responsibility for my actions. I do this with the best of my ability and putting humbleness first. I am good enough. I know
Faith took me to move forward when I did not have anything left behind, I had to search for God because there was nothing else to search for, Once your financial needs are met and you are still bankrupt you cannot do anything else that look fo God, which is faith based on the knowledge of how the law of the universe works, a benevolent love and kind set of laws that have been created for us to prosper and became whole again, connected with our soul. Restoring this relationship with the world was my ultimate hope and the only hope I could find. I found faith through action, so when the results came I knew faith was real.
God was forcing myself to believe that if I could apply the spiritual principle of acceptance of my past and my present for what they truly were I would find him whatever he was, because there was something missing and what was missing was connection and knowledge and courage and honesty and faith and humbleness, what was missing was my human nature, was me. Connection with myself started with being honest, brutally honest to myself in service to the truth, which is God, which is love, love for the truth.
God is everywhere because I can see it, it is life, it is happiness, it is joy, it is a child, a homeless young person who takes the risk to lose everything to find himself again and not to die of emotional abandonment and abuse; of a person who decides to look for himself and his values and stumbles in the dark and falls and stand up again and again again, humble and strong like only someone who is so humble can be; like someone who has lost confidence and to whom anger has taken over his grief.
God (the truth and its joy) is available to everyone who is willing to accept his own flaws and move forward, one step at the time, towards his ultimate goal: fulfil his potential as a human being.
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